Why and what?

Why would I facebook message a person I dated 20 years ago. And what IF she responds?
I dated this girl around graduation time, she was a soph and went to martin, really way too cute for me. But hey, there was something about me she seemed to like. technically she broke up with me out of the blue, but being a senior/grad I assumed that the grass was greener on the other side and pretty much blew her off in bad form. turns out the grass wasnt AS green and since I burned the bridge in such a big way, had no way to return.
a few years later( she had graduated) was looking up a friend that had the same last name and found her. out of curiousity I called and damn if she didnt answer. We ended up meeting up, and talked a bit and that was it.
UNTIL face book.
I looked her up for giggles and actually found her. still going by her maiden name, debated for a few days about sending her a message, then today I did. "I am a kick in Jacks balls". Now I just waite and see i guess.
What The F was I thinking?

Oh and I still havent ridden since the FNR. I really feel like riding, but after work, the heat and humidity, I just pretty much veg out. maybe tomorrow. for tomorrow is another day.